I don't know what it is But I know it's amazing, you save me My time is coming And I'll find my way out of this longest drought It feels like today

I am sitting here in my bed. I’m warm, calm, and feel semi-productive. Contemplative. Lately I have realized that being contemplative is a luxury. The business and busyness of life doesn’t always allow you to look out that window at something that is still.


When I lived with my parents, I used to sit at my desk in my room and look out the window a lot. I found myself doing this quite often. I wasn’t look at something in particular. I didn’t need to see anything. If I may attempt to describe, it was more of looking outside into the world for something fulfilling I had not yet found. It was looking toward something, reinforcing to myself that it existed and it was there waiting for me. It was also a way of meditation. It was a way to daydream. It was a comfort to look out that window and “see” all the possibilities of life no matter what was happening to me at that time.

There are always possibilities and life to appreciate. I can see myself sitting in that chair and looking out the window with every wish and hope that I had for myself. I still carry them all with me. I may have a different window now, but what I see is familiar. We should never lose sight of the things that we wish for ourselves. It is one of the most eloquent practices of love that we experience within.

Here’s to a Season full of wishes come true and a New Year of discovery outside your window.

Can you believe when all you've got is doubt And no one to pull you out When your heart is slowing down Can you believe?

When the door seems to close on something you feel you've been working hard for it makes you re-think the things you want.

People create limits. Others will question what you can bring to the table. In fact, they will tell you that you can't bring to the table as much as someone else. These are hard things to hear. They can be hurtful to you, and to the purpose that you are working towards. These are the times when faith is tested. It is a hard lesson to learn and one that I'm not sure is ever fully learned in life.

I find it funny how we try to stay away from the things we really want in life. We get confused as to what we really want. And then something or someone happens to give you a reminder – sometimes this reminder comes in the form of a seeming defeat. A reminder that what is comfortable and easy and even good is not necessarily fulfilling the level of desire and potential that lies within us. This amazing destination that has been created for you and is patiently waiting for your arrival. It is in those times when we have to fully believe. And that becomes the process of fulfilling our dreams. And it is possible.


“So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then when we summon the will, they soon become inevitable.”

-Christopher REEVE